Perhaps we are just colleagues, not even friends

" I have helped you from list A to Z BUT YOU DID NOT HELP ME AT ALL."
Wonder who is that?This is one of my "supposed-to-be good friend" who'd told me recently. Well, if you did not need other people's help at all the times and you did not seem to have any difficulties throughout your studies plus you never asked for my assistance in any aspects, what could I do to help you. If you are so calculative in what and which you have helped me and always expected a return, perhaps you did all these just because that you wanna chase me and got my attention. You did not really have the frank intention to help me.

"Oh, you have skin disease. Then shall I consult doctor as well? Is it contagious? AM I IN DANGER?"...then followed by my reply," Can I slap you?"(I was trying to know whether he is joking or crapping)....then I got a shocking reply, " WHY? I AM SERIOUS!"
Note: By the way, yeah, I have atopic eczema which is just a minor problem. It's not contagious.

Could you imagine that you "supposed-to-be good friend" treats you as an alien by worrying that he's in EXTREMELY DANGEROUS CONDITION without even showing his concern for your health condition?

Well, I guess he still thinks that he is always correct and is right at saying all these to me.

After writing this post, I am much more relieved. It's like throwing all the trashes into dustbin.

A whole new dragon year 2012.I will embrace it with new resolutions and perhaps make more new friends...Hope I can do well in exam...I really wish to...I must do well.....

Disappointment...

Disappointed again!
Whatever it is, you wouldn't make an impact towards my life starting from today. It's harsh. Yeah, I know. However, you are making yourself to be more irresponsible. I myself shall become very independent.
You have forced me to do so.
A person who always fails to do something after promising and giving lots of excuse instead of just confessing it or making an effort to rectify it. Not really behaving as a gentlemen.
All these will end here because perhaps, everything that you've done recently really induces disappointment.
Might as well mind my own business. Stay focused. =)

Independent

Sometimes, we just need to be very independent.
Not everybody has the responsibility to help you.

Disappointment

I am really disappointed in you. Although the incidence happening is so trivial, it just makes me feel sucks.

Sometimes...

Sometimes, I feel that it is hard to come across a friend that you can tell him/ her everything regardless of your happiness or sorrow, feelings, etc when you get into university. There are times whereby void starts to engulf your soul.
Even your own academic advisor, the so-called close friends will judge you by your results, achievements and other aspects. I guess all these are human instincts where they sometimes do something naturally without realising it.
I suddenly realise that I am not a social butterfly. I want to be one but just that, I become so retrenched that I gradually start keeping many things to myself and do not really invest much of my time of socializing around. That is pretty wrong. I know that. I know I've become like that because I am not that happy compared to previous times. Perhaps it's time to change.
Perhaps this is what you need to pay off as you've grown up.
The law of attraction? Perhaps I don't really master such skills.
Back to studies now.
Pen off.
=)

We cannot trust everybody

I found that not all the people are kind. Many of them are cruel. This is the reality of life.
You have to accept that. Many people are trying to take advantage of you and even trying so hard to ruin your reputation.
You will be lagging behind if you do not try hard to improve yourself.
I agree strongly with Dr. Thaw's beliefs that the world is only meant for the rich. The poor are always being put into disadvantages.
The only thing that can change our life into better ones is education and knowledge. Just because I am poor, my deposit is being forfeited by the rich owner. Just because I am poor, I had to settle down and compromise with the unfair tenancy contract to be signed because I had limited time to look for a good room previously. Just because I did not perform well in the few tests, you made me as your target to back stab me in front of the lecturers without telling me before you went to see lecturers.
I want to tell you that, I am not a fool. I know what had actually happened. The social circle in UTAR medical school is already so small and yet you are trying to create more enemies for yourself. Screw you.
Do you think that making me inferior in front of others will make you appear to be more excellent?It'll never happen. You will never know that I will bounce back in the coming test.
Complaints of life are useless.I will work my ass off in the smart way to prove my value and importance.
Yeah, people who always try to harm and pull me down have always become a booster for me to work 120% harder.This had been proven before previously in my life. I am a strange creature. I would like to thank you for your evil thoughts of pulling me down in academic because it works the other way round to me. You will be surprised.

EOS's coming..haha

EOS lurrrr....coming soon
Just wanna write something here to motivate myself.
Yeah..go go. Don't let your own progress to be hampered by fear and worthless or unnecessary worries. You'll be doing fine.Yea...I notice that it's always the bad emotions which will transform all my hard work into trash.
Yeah, keep myself in good mood and reminding myself of what to do everyday without putting myself into confusion ...then it should be alright, isn't it?
Don't let negative thinking kills you. Miraculously, hoping for the best and have faith in myself will bring me to success. Please....let me gather all the COURAGE to do well in EOC as what I had gained during the preparation for STPM 2010!
When you are steadily revising and be alert of what you are doing, you'll be fine!Don't doubt about yourself. Doubts should be placed in the right event but never ever you shall doubt about your ability.
Ok....enough of motivation...LET'S START STUDYING!Yipeeeee
I'll fight and drill till the end...So syok and exciting! Be the greatest WARRIOR who's confident.....say NO to losers...